bulstrode

You know, sometimes the rain is refreshing.

Even more so when you can take a walk in it, been a while since I did that.

At time of the night like this, I wish there was just something to hit. It's 5:30am, I'm tired and stressed from working on my homework all night long due to procrastination on my time, I even skipped meals today to make up for my lack of responsibility. I'm just glad to be over with that shit, it was far too long for me to even want to talk about it. I also received a few letters from my brothers, they told me not to bother coming home for the holiday because they've given my bed up to one of their girlfriend. Apparently, some bint is more important than his own sister.

Piss off.

Also.

My adorable black cat is missing, if you find him and hurt him at ALL, I will find you and hex you until you can't walk without the aid of crutches. If you see him, you may stun him, but that is ALL, do not intentionally go out of your way to hurt him.

Ugh.

Hey, you. Yeah, you. Little firstie in my seat in the Common Room. DO NOT SIT IN MY CHAIR UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCES WHAT SO EVER. IF I EVER SEE YOU HANGING AROUND MY CHAIR OR EVEN GAZING AT IT ON ACCIDENT, I WILL THROW IN THE BLACK LAKE AND HOPE THAT YOU GET EATEN ALIVE BY SOME CREATURE.

And I will be there to watch you from my window. When is this not clear to everyone that you do not sit in the chair near the window? It's mine, it will always be mine and if I come back to visit for 5 minutes? It better be vacant. I brought it from home and it's not for people to occupy when I am not there.

I hate the ugly weather, I hate this Common Room and I'm sick of the firsties.

I still can't find my coat and if this is some cheap trick to piss me off, well you've pulled it off. I'm not amused one BIT.

I've also decided to try to turn a new leaf, so to speak. I want to try to control my temper a little more than I have been in the past and if it doesn't work? Deal, nothing new is conquered in a day. I don't really want to be the person I was in the years before, but that's nothing that can change over night so don't be surprised if I still try to knock your lights out.

[private to self.]
I'm so sick of everyone in the Common Room being different, I want to get rid of them all today. I despise Harry being in the Common Room or in MY HOUSE. HE IS NOT A SLYTHERIN. All these house changes are ridiculous and there is no reason for any of them. Not only is it realistic, but I do not like having to deal with the thought that all my former house-mates are making friends with blood-traitors and muggles. It's sick and stressful.

I can't stop myself, I'm stressing out again. I haven't eaten since four days now, I don't know if I can keep doing this. What the fuck is wrong with me? I have to go to dinner with my class later and they aren't doing enough, now I have to fucking eat with them? Fuck.

What if they figure it out, what if I pass out on my plate and fall face first into my soup, then drown because I suffocated or something.


BIG NEWS: MILLICENT BULSTRODE DIED IN HER SOUP BOWL.


Fantastic.

Fine. I'll have something at dinner. Something small and enough to make everything think that I'm eating. I don't even want to go down there. I was suppose to meet Blaise the other day, but I couldn't find him and I'm starting to feel kind of paranoid that I might seem like a harlot or something. There is no point to socializing with Pansy, Tracey or Daphne because they are all the same and I'm definitely not. Not to mention, now that I've lost weight and they think I'm not as frightening that I don't think they respect me anymore.

Fuck them.
[/Private]

A. I cannot find my cat.
B. Where the hell is my jacket, it feels like it's 20 degrees outside.
C. Pansy? Did you see it?

Blaise? I wasn't able to find you the one day, where the hell were you?

I've decided that I know HATE being a Slytherin as everyone I knew is scattered around with exception of those I just am acquaintances with.

I'm glad I wasn't removed from Slytherin. I feel kind of strange considering some of the familiar faces are not in the Common Room anymore and some of the new ones just piss me off.

(private to self)

I'm so lonely. I wish someone could understand me, I get so frustrated sometimes that I can't control how I feel. It makes my stomach turn in circles to the point of feeling sick like I do now.

My brother sent me some dresses that his fiancee wanted me to wear or try on for their small wedding. Ugh.

(/private)

I'm not coming to class today.

ALL OF YOU HAVE THE MOST ANNOYING HANDWRITING.

PLEASE, BE NEATER.

This place is full of hormonal angst and annoyance, it's giving me a headache beyond belief. Unlike the lot of you, I don't feel the need to write angsty entries about my life.

( Millie )

( Millicent Bulstrode )

( im a sheep. baaa )